Where has the time gone! My last post was seven months ago!!! Well, it has happened. The entire reason I began this blog all those years ago!!! My son Grayson who will be 10, in only three short months, wanted to read his blog! I was delighted and excited all in one to show it to him. He had no idea I have been documenting his and Rogan's life since they were both babies! So much for the first years baby book! They has enough for a biography...right! He enjoyed reading every bit of it. If you have followed by blog since Grayson was a baby, then you know there are two other links on this blog that date that far back. It filled my heart with joy to see him reading so eagerly all about those years he doesn't remember and many which he does. See the thing is, I knew he wouldn't remember all those special times so I wanted to be certain I journaled those so they could read all those special events in our lives. The good and the not so good and all those real life moments. I will say he enjoyed it so much he couldn't stop reading it! He read every word in 3 days!!!! Now I wait for the day Rogan is ready to read about our lives and all those special memories we have made!
Well despite my fears of Rogan attending all day kindergarten, they are long in the past. Rogan loved it! He enjoyed every minute of it and looked forward to going each and every day. Not going to lie, my heart was so broken when now both of my boys were gone, there were times I would find myself in stores watching all those moms with their boys still enjoying those precious first five years and I would turn the corner with tears streaming down my face! It hurt and it hurt deep! Such hurt it ached a lot! Well as they say God heals all things. I was at the Y after working out laying at the pool right before school was out for the summer,I looked over at all those moms still enjoying their hip babies and chasing their toddlers. I thought to myself, "Wow my heart is healed, God has healed my broken heart!" No longer did seeing those moms in that phase hurt any more nor did I desire to be in that phase! I am happy with the season of life my boys are in NOW and trying to take in each and every moment for I know all to well how fast these years will continue to pass before my very eyes! God also found other places to heal my heart and use my gifts of being around children. I have been subbing since January as an Instructional Assistant. I would substitute three days a week and come home every single time with a huge smile on my face! I was also offered a job full time which I didn't apply for so I felt very honored to be recommended. I know how hard it is to get on with the HSE school district. I declined the job because I still want to be able to volunteer in my boy's rooms once a week and eat lunch with them. Also, go on field trips and should they get sick, I want to be able to take care of them without worrying about calling in. I also teach the 4-5 year olds at church every other Sunday at our 9:45 service. So yes, God has found other uses for my over protective motherly heart. He also brought two sweet 4 year old boys into my life on Fridays during the school year from 9-11. I watched them at our church while their mothers enjoyed a bible study! That said God continues to place me in the right place because he already knows my story...he wrote it to begin with.
Well here we are with summer and we are having a blast, don't get me wrong not every day is perfect. I do have two little boys and for those of you that have boys, that means everything is physical so lots of rough play!!! meaning lots of bumps and bruises and arguing along the way. Wouldn't trade it because God knew I'd be a great boy mom!!!! We are swimming a lot, bowling, playing outside, just having as much fun as we can for as long as we can because August will be here before we know it and I will have to say goodbye to those sweet boys one more time! Yes, it will hurt again I just know!
Making Snow Angels
16 years ago